whirling around.

i'll make you mine, it's just a matter of time.

i missed school today. I woke up at 9.25am only started studying about an hour later. studied till 11 plus, steff called and i was put off my work and haven't touched it since and that's bad. my sister's a bug.


i was just thinking about you, everything from your head to your toes.

screaming tempest.

girl you are so fine, i want you to be mine.

i am tired. i'm gonna sleep. planned my day tomorrow, or later either. 9.15am gotta be up. take a shower by 10.00am must start on revising. :) i made a bet with gehui. i hope i win! :D

even in myself.

alright i think i'm not going to school tomorrow. during geog today i had a sudden flashback of about 2 months ago. (?!) it was something like the YMS auditorium and what happened and what broke my heart and stuff. whatever. it was about 12.30 i started feeling sick and at 1 i touched my forehead. i had a fever. maybe that's why i had all those nonsense flashback and triggers.

i dont know what it is

alright. i didnt delete those messages. i just cant fucking bear to. whatever. anyway i haven't been updating over these days though i've so much to say i'm sort of addicted to the sims? it's just so fun(I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING!!?) . anyhows school was alright. plus i've made a realization. i'm quite an attention seeker.
STOP SEEKING SO MUCH ATTENTION YOU WHORE??!?!?!?!

have i told you lately i love you?

alright, as much as i dont want to do it but i have to do it. What am i going to do? Delete all the tingxi messages. Why am i going to do it? Because i want to change my phone. How shitty eh? whatever la. i've got like 80+ and those are the ones which have haha or a smiley or something else. And if either of you of her friends pop by here dont be some sick pervert and tell her everything la. should i or should i not? i guess i'll send it to my phone la. bye.

have you already forgotten macy gray?

ALRIGHT.
today was quite interesting day. I went for badminton training, was sort of boring cos the GIRLS decided to abandon me today especially when I had my hair done especially for them ;) and i was playing this match which was kinda boring then I started hearing guys wailing. I got damn freaking pissed when I saw this guy cowering because someother guy was gonna hit shuttles at him. IT'S JUST FUCKING SHUTTLES. And the guys I were playing against were laughing while I was just staring them down. I felt damn mature/cool (!!) I don't know why so don't ask nor laugh. After training went to the changing room, then there was this RGPS girl in primary 5 I asked her something and she randomly said," I'm short for a primary 5 hor?" I was like," you're ok. You're kinda tall." prolly she wants to become a model or something. (HAHA) but she's pretty. Then her sister tried to open the locker then I don't know what happened she said,"you fucking!" and then they both started calling each other fucking when I know they meant fuckers. I wanted to laugh at them, but I didn't know whether to laugh at them because they knew 'fuck' at 10? 11? Or because they said 'fucking' instead the should be version; fucker.




Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy Girl, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
Deny.

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feenin'
I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumbe
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

You Are 30% Weird

Not enough to scare other people...But sometimes you scare yourself.

How Weird Are You?

this is to tingxi. i'm not that weird, damn!

Your IQ Is 95

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

i always knew i was knowledgeable! :D

the underwear oracle.

What Your Underwear Says About You

When you're bad, you're very bad. And when you're good, you're still trouble! You are childlike (or childish), and prone to run around in your underwear.

The Underwear Oracle

haha.i feel damn cute now. ;)

how boyish or girlish are you?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

EUNUCH?! FUCK YOU LA.

what's my sexy brazillian name

Your Sexy Brazilian Name is:

Isabeli Ambrosio

What's" Your Sexy Brazilian Name?

wahh. i feel damn sexy now la..

:D

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

i came across this, rather interesting i must say. I'M FEMALE YOU FUCKING TWITS. I'M NOT A FUCKING MGS TAH POH(hokkien for boy) -winks at mabel and glares at chao ah beng we saw at centrepoint- and the best thing IS, we aren't even from MGS! today's drinking session was crap. WE DIDN'T EVEN DRINK NOR GET HIGH.

Another little hole.

Alright I just sent a message to Yukika. I was surfing around then MSN made an alert and I saw, an email received from hideaki matsuo. WAH I was so Fucking happy la! I hope she replies me! I'm listening to aqualung another little hole now. There's another little hole in my heart plus another little tear in my eye. School today was kind cool. But I felt very irksome after 1st period of Chemistry. And then we had some animation drawing thing during assembly and I sort of laughed at the guys drawing like a lot until I started crying la. It's odd la. Then after that had to go do the voting thing for Howe captain. Whosoever didn't even go. Well that made me sad. And then had orals messaged her at 2.40ish but she replied almost immediately that she had already finish, plus my message was to wish her good luck. HAHA! then went to town la. went taka then meridien i like meridien kinda cool. i lied to germaine. i wish she would kill me.

TOMORROW NIGHT. GONNA GET DRUNK! :D

gamma rays.

ai'ights. i want the abercrombie kilburn waffle jacket. or the nike bag. i'm supposed to post it up here for anna to see but i can't i'm using my sis's laptop. hmmm. i miss tingxi. BYE BYE.

techno in the stereo.

gone for 60 years.
you either make or break. you either cry or fly. you either rejoice or remorse.

three cheers for sweet sweet victory.

I AM SO HAPPY!! RUSSIA BEAT FRANCE IN THE FED CUP FINALS 3-2!! YAY!! OH MY GOSH. I STAYED UP TO WATCH IT! I LOVE DINARA SAFINA AND ELENA DEMENTIEVA AND ALWAYS WILL ANASTASIA MYSKINA!! BUT THE FUCKING SUPERSPORTS NEVER SHOW THE PRIZE GIVING CEREMONY!! WHAT THE FUCK LOR! THEY SHOWED SOME FUCKING SOCCER MATCH. WHY?!?!?!?!?! FUCKAS!!! I LOVE RUSSIA!! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE! 2 YEARS RUNNING! YAY! YIPEE!! HAPPY HAPPY! :D

music- gotta get over you, aslyn.

i can't get to sleep, it's 1.58am. and there's aslyn's gotta get over you playing on itunes. THANKS ALOT HOR. but not like it matters anyhow. i have a new maid at home and she asked me, how do i use the iron, and i was like ?!?!?!?! i dont even know. i feel like those princessy girls and looloo heads and things like that. ugh. i wannna sleep but i can't get to sleep. if my mum pops out of her bedroom i'm gonna be in like BEEEG trouble. tomorrow's friday. I WANT STEAMBOAT LAH!!

dont let it go to your head?

So what if I came clean
And told you all you mean to me
So what if I meant every word I said
Baby don't let it go to your head

So what if I write your name
Cause you're always on my brain
In a heart, I paint it crimson red
Baby don't let it go to your head
Don't be getting any big ideas
Let me make it clear

Just cause I can't go on
Just cause I die when you're gone
Just cause I think of you in bed
Don't let it go to your head
If I looked in your eyes
One, two, too many times
And memorized every word you said
Don't let it go to your head

So what if I want to kiss
From your toes up to your lips
It don't mean that you've had me yet
You're gonna be good, I bet
I'm the one whose in control here
Let me make it clear

Just cause I can't go on
Just cause I die when you're gone
Just cause I think of you in bed
Don't let it go to your head
If I looked in your eyes
One, two, too many times
And memorized every word you said
Don't let it go to your head

Ohhhhh
Don't let it go to your head
Ohhhhh

I had a porcelain doll
I held on to it so tightly
But when it broke,
I swore I'd never hold on to something that tightly again
Don't let it go to your head
Oh, no

Just cause I can't go on
Just cause I die when you're gone
Just cause I think of you in bed
Don't let it go to your head
Don't let it go to your head

Just cause I can't go on
Just cause I die when you're gone
Just cause I think of you in bed
Don't let it go to your head
If I looked in your eyes
One, two, too many times
And memorized every word you said
Don't let it go to your head
Don't let it go to your head
Don't let it go to your head
Don't let it go to your head



/break it down then I'll tell you what i feel
from the moment that i met you its been so damn real
my heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak.



i wrote a 19 page story. :D and i wrote an anecdote for the handbook thing. :D the 19 page story was some nonsense but yeah. i like it. :)

READ THE WHOLE FUCKING THING!! ;)

i wanna blog bout my vietnam trip,

the first day we arrived it was like fucking late already at about 5pm vietnam time. so it was singapore 6pm. went to the office there and i was just hanging around and i saw shannon come out from the backdoor which had the apartment upstairs and then suddenly caught her smoking. so yeah was kind off awkward but we talked la. :) went to the hotel. had dinner dong khai didn't do much, just walked around. then went back to the hotel and slept.
the second day woke up real early. ok we overslept but still we woke up damn early, made out way to the vietbuild exhibition which was retarded but was kinda cool la couldn't speak their language so me and shannon just walked around that place found out some stuff bout her. yeah took pictures of her. then later we left the exhibition cos just didnt fit in la. had lunch at this cool place and i felt damn horrible after lunch then we went to ben thanh market, it's like so HUMONGOUS pasar malam la. then lots of bargains and stuff but i didnt get anything la. so yeah. then went back to the hotel and showered went out had steamboat for dinner than later i was given a choice to go play pool with shannon, steven and my sister. or go with the old foggies to the casino. i thought i couldn't get in so i went with shannon and my sister and steven we played pool i partnered shannon and we won 2 sets! :D then after that we went to the hotel and went back to sleep la.
the third day we went shopping! but it was like crap la. they went to some SXS. and the things are like nice but it's not for me. my sister and mom and aunt helen bought like about USD200+ worth of clothes shoes and bags. kinda cheap la. but HAHA. it's not too me. then after that had lunch and went to the exhibition again.sort crappy so i talked to the vietnamnese exhibitors like trinh! :D then after left the exhibition and went to siam square. i bought 2 formal long sleeve ralph lauren shirt for singapore $25 around there. damn fucking cheap. some more it's real! :D haha! it's an over-run la. then later went to this pacific restaurant the food was kind off eeeyer. but this woman gave me a big mug of beer and when i finished it i felt a little high. a tad bit drunk then we went to a karaoke lounge where everyone was smoking and drinking was sort of disgusted la. cos i smelt really bad. and i was wearing my HUGO BOSS LONG SLEEVE SHIRT. ugh. then went back to the hotel at 1 or 2. slept around singapore 3am.
the fourth day, morning overslept la. everyone also. like wtf. we woke up at 9.50am 10 minutes more and breakfast no more. i got down really quickly and got like lots of food and stuff la. then my mum sis and aunt all came down was quite funny la. after that i changed and went on an impromptu tour around HO CHI MINH CITY. we went to this cathedral and we saw this fat woman in a wedding gown and track shoes. HAHA. it was fucking hilarious la. and she's angmoh. fatter than me. shorter than me. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! then after that we went back to the hotel changed again and went to the exhibiton again. so it was like the last day I'm gonna see them, so took photos with the girls and stuff. and trinh is like so funny she grabbed my arm put her head on my shoulder and was like, manson quite handsome right? then i just laughed real loudly and my sister who was talking to manson and standing right in front me heard and we both burst out laughing then we had to go already so said bye to trinh and li sa and phuong and all of them cos wont see them tomorrow cos leaving already then we had a conversation outside the exhibition about the vietnamnese girls taste on men. cos all the girls thought this stick thin hunchbacked wart plantation man was good looking and manson too. then my mum made a very insensitive comment saying, maybe that's just the girl's taste and she said something else which made us all burst into laughter and manson was like. "heartbrokened" then got back to the hotel, bathed changed and went out again, followed gladys to get some stuff from SXS. then went to caravelle hotel. and i went into the casino. I WENT INTO THE CASINO. nobody stopped me and i played the jackpot and i won money!! :D but then i lost it again. HAHA. then we went for dinner which was like fucking heavy la. after that couldn't walk back. haha. but we still did la. then went back to the hotel had to pack up la.
the fifth/last day. when i woke up i realized i overslept, was suppose to join, shannon manson my sister and richard for breakfast but i woke up at the time they were supposed to leave for their tour at around 7.45am then i went down said hi and shannon took photo of me in my half awake state. then later i had breakfast and they only left at 8.45am 1 hr after the supposed time. HAHA. then we just hung around the hotel then i went to sleep overslept. showered too long. got on to a cab which went to the wrong way. saw trinh at the airport! :D coincidentally. and we got to the airport at 11.05am. just 5minutes before they closed the gate. and i was like, damn! should have bather longer. AHAHA. then can miss the flight and dont need to to go back to singapore NO NEED TO GO SCHOOL! :D but yeah in the aeroplane had a really good air stewardess, her name was wong wei lien. or something like that she reminded me of drew barrymore. HAHA i was watching perfect catch then too! yeah then arrived back in singapore. then like that lor. vietnam was nice la. i miss shannon and those other people. :( like trinh! :D AND AND AND shannon's slave driver she kept making trinh do ALL the work. hahaha.


TODAY.
i got a haircut! :D

so fucken nice! :D the star alvin cut and take photo for me! :D

lost in saigon.

ai'ghts. back from vietnam was an interesting trip.

if i fall.

ok. i have this 1 week to sort out my priorities and stuff. anyway i guess this 1 week is gonna help me get over that person. 1 week without contact and seeing that person. ahh. we will see la.

and daniela and ai lost to the damn chinese. oh wells. was a close match.

live scoring i swear is at least 10 seconds slower. WHY THE HELL DO THEY CALL IT LIVE THEN?!?!

anyhows. today was ok. i went to the gym. i did i full body workout. :D i feel so muscular.! alright. i'm gonna watch tv. blog again later.

DANIELA HANTUCHOVA IS SO FUCKING HOT!! OH MY GOSH!
HOTHOTHOTHOT!!!

Flushing meadows.

Alright.
my song used to be strange and beautiful by aqualung. But someone took it away. Then it was plus one's last flight out which I thought people would have long forgotten. But someone heard it again. And took that song for herself. Note, both people who took away the songs which I did hold dearly and close to my heart are butch. RIGHT. Music has become a commodity!! Correction, music has always been a commodity. Damn! I don't even know what I'm trying to say.

anyhow. Today was ok, played lots of badminton quite fun actually but I am screwed when I am trying to end the points I always hit into the net. And my backhand improved. :D

p.s. I want to be at flushing meadows now.

the epiphanies.

the previous post is crap. i went to school like really early today. i had that fucking walk which was fucking boring. wait whatever la. it's saturday. i feel like dying. bye bye.

i feel like absolute crap. it's like, i cant get over you and i have a crush on someone else. it's fucking horrible. i hate you for making me feel this way about you, but then again i love you also for making me feel like that, it's a mystery how i can like you for so long. and all these scars wont go away. you made a very big impact on my life. i dont know but, i feel as if you were the only girl i could ever have. but then again they all told me things. so i believe them but it's just that i cant get over you. i dont know. i'd bleed for you everyday. i'd do anything and everything for you. and the fact that i dont say i'd love you forever or i will love you always and need you always because i know i cant have you forever and always will one day just break away. wait. what am i talking bout.

motherfucking cows.

reciprocrate.

one day i hope i can make a difference in your life, just like you made a difference in mine.
somehow i still feel so strongly about you if you could explain why, i would glady listen.

savages.

alright. i am shopping at ebay again.


i miss the japanese girls alot. like really alot. i dont know why, but yeah. And then there's this person who's kawaii. and i've got a tiny crush on her. but i still like tingxi very much. alright. this is screwed. blog again later.

TA.

popular consensus.

alrighteys. i am typing an email and blogging. :D i am writing an email to mana, i miss her/them so much. like really alot.

cam whoring.

ai'ght you bitches, i've uploaded alot of pictures. about 190 already. i'm seriously tired. :( it's like 2.30 am now.


http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121524534
this is the one where we went to chinatown and had the farewell party.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121524471
this is the one where we went to escape and town. :)

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121436180
random outing pictures. :)

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121439176
at changi airport, when they were going back to japan. it really broke my heart.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2121435529
it's for fun! :D